Yesterday was very scary. It was a lot of emotion and fear that I didn't know how to deal with. Also yesterday, I got in a huge fight with my parents. I was trying to explain to them what I was going through with PCOS, and especially trying to explain that to my dad is like, impossible. The thing is, no matter how much I tell them what I'm going through, it is frusterating to know that they will never, ever really know what I'm dealing with because they do not have PCOS. They aren't living this, and fighting this every second of every day.
Yesterday was bad. I really, really wish I had some Lush Cosmetics Bubble Bars so I could have taken a bubble bath yesterday. But I didn't. And I'm still okay.
I woke up this morning realizing I was getting ahead of myself. My doctor didn't say I have cushing's sydrome, she said that I MIGHT have it. I am not going to getting upset & worried over nothing. I am not going to let it effect my diet.
And the most important thing I realized? Regardless of what's wrong with me, my weight and my health are going to directly effect it. The healthier and more weight i lose, the better I will feel, the healthier I will be.
I am back on my diet and doing well. I'm going to "deep clean" my room (which is my form of detoxing) and clear my head. I'm going back to the gym and doing my muscle training later.
I know I've got to keep going. And I will not stop. Even if I don't lose a pound. I will keep going.
Oh, also, today is my first day on Metformin. Makes me not want to put any food in my mouth. makes me kind of nauseous. But I have to eat to keep my metabolism up, but hopefully this will help with my body acting so out of wack, and it supposedly helps weight loss for women with PCOS.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Cushing's Sydrome and a wholleeee lot of discouragement
I am back from my three hour long appointment with my PCOS specialist. She thinks I might have cushing's syndrome.
I feel defeated, I started crying at the doctors office, and I'm starting to cry as I write this. I feel pathetic, and like I should "grow a pair" as they say, but the thing is, I am relatively healthy. I have been pretty active all my life, and up until recently (like a few months ago) I have never been obese. I mean, I was a varsity tennis player for 5 years for christ's sake. I'm 200 pounds, not 400. I'm freaking 19 years old, not 45. Which is what I felt like when she was telling me all that was wrong with me today. what is going on with my body?
As you may know, I have been logging everything I eat on this caloriecounting website called caloriecount.about.com, and I printed out all my logs for her and showed them to her. She saw EVERYTHING, even if I cheated, she saw how much I exercised- everything. She was surprised I hadn't lost more weight, but she said for women with PCOS, sometimes the numbers just don't add up (it's not as simple as the 3500 calorie per pound burn more than you eat thing) and that it was better to be overweight an exercise than to be obese and not exercise.
I feel like crawling into a hole and dying. She is putting me on Metformin, and I will start the perscription tomorrow.
I don't want to lose faith or hope, and I am thankful for everyone I have met so far on this site. But I will say that it's very hard not to get discouraged, especially since she basically told me i don't and i won't lose weight like everyone else. I honestly feel like if I starve myself for a year (which I won't) i won't drop a pound.
I feel very ill today. I am physically, mentally, emotionally exhausted. I am taking a nap. I have not stayed on my diet, I ate a crossant and coffee after the doctor's this morning.
Obviously, the more discouraged I get the more i want to eat. I know that is normal, but I also know i need to be careful.
I am not going to throw in the towel, and tomorrow I will get everything back on track better than it was before. And i know, i know, the whole thing about "why tomorrow? why not today?" honestly, I just need a mental break right now. I don't plan on binging, or anyting like that, and i will still eat my diet meals that I have been eating, but i probably won't go to the gym, i probably won't do my exercising. I just need to not stress over it right now. I just need a break.
Because I feel like I just got hit with a big mack truck.
I feel defeated, I started crying at the doctors office, and I'm starting to cry as I write this. I feel pathetic, and like I should "grow a pair" as they say, but the thing is, I am relatively healthy. I have been pretty active all my life, and up until recently (like a few months ago) I have never been obese. I mean, I was a varsity tennis player for 5 years for christ's sake. I'm 200 pounds, not 400. I'm freaking 19 years old, not 45. Which is what I felt like when she was telling me all that was wrong with me today. what is going on with my body?
As you may know, I have been logging everything I eat on this caloriecounting website called caloriecount.about.com, and I printed out all my logs for her and showed them to her. She saw EVERYTHING, even if I cheated, she saw how much I exercised- everything. She was surprised I hadn't lost more weight, but she said for women with PCOS, sometimes the numbers just don't add up (it's not as simple as the 3500 calorie per pound burn more than you eat thing) and that it was better to be overweight an exercise than to be obese and not exercise.
I feel like crawling into a hole and dying. She is putting me on Metformin, and I will start the perscription tomorrow.
I don't want to lose faith or hope, and I am thankful for everyone I have met so far on this site. But I will say that it's very hard not to get discouraged, especially since she basically told me i don't and i won't lose weight like everyone else. I honestly feel like if I starve myself for a year (which I won't) i won't drop a pound.
I feel very ill today. I am physically, mentally, emotionally exhausted. I am taking a nap. I have not stayed on my diet, I ate a crossant and coffee after the doctor's this morning.
Obviously, the more discouraged I get the more i want to eat. I know that is normal, but I also know i need to be careful.
I am not going to throw in the towel, and tomorrow I will get everything back on track better than it was before. And i know, i know, the whole thing about "why tomorrow? why not today?" honestly, I just need a mental break right now. I don't plan on binging, or anyting like that, and i will still eat my diet meals that I have been eating, but i probably won't go to the gym, i probably won't do my exercising. I just need to not stress over it right now. I just need a break.
Because I feel like I just got hit with a big mack truck.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
May I Just Say- WTF
I stepped on the scale. My bad, I know, I shouldn't of done it- but I did anyway.
Mr. Scale says I gained 4 pounds. 4 freaking pounds. 203.8. In like, 3 days? WHAT!?
Okay, I know today is the first day I've worked out this week. But I still have the rest of the week left. I only ate 837 calories today. I drank a ton of water. I don't know. I don't know. I feel hopeless and helpless.
I immediately went downstairs and ate a grilled cheese and chips. I mean honestly, WHAT IS THE POINT?! I am so sad. I am so frusterated.
everyday this week (starting monday) I have eaten between 850-1300 calories. No more, no less. I didn't expect to have lost weight, because I haven't excercised but 1 day and I wasn't following my super specific /strict 6WBM diet 100%, but i was still eating like low calories. I expected to be the same, or maybe a little less, or maybe even a little more because I drank a lot of water today. But 4 pounds?! I mean i didn't drink 4 pounds of water. WHAT IS GOING ON
Thank god im going to the doctor tomorrow. I'm printing out my food logs and bringing them with me, so she can see exactly everything i've eaten and all the work outs i've been doing for the last 2 1/2 weeks.
=(
Mr. Scale says I gained 4 pounds. 4 freaking pounds. 203.8. In like, 3 days? WHAT!?
Okay, I know today is the first day I've worked out this week. But I still have the rest of the week left. I only ate 837 calories today. I drank a ton of water. I don't know. I don't know. I feel hopeless and helpless.
I immediately went downstairs and ate a grilled cheese and chips. I mean honestly, WHAT IS THE POINT?! I am so sad. I am so frusterated.
everyday this week (starting monday) I have eaten between 850-1300 calories. No more, no less. I didn't expect to have lost weight, because I haven't excercised but 1 day and I wasn't following my super specific /strict 6WBM diet 100%, but i was still eating like low calories. I expected to be the same, or maybe a little less, or maybe even a little more because I drank a lot of water today. But 4 pounds?! I mean i didn't drink 4 pounds of water. WHAT IS GOING ON
Thank god im going to the doctor tomorrow. I'm printing out my food logs and bringing them with me, so she can see exactly everything i've eaten and all the work outs i've been doing for the last 2 1/2 weeks.
=(
Even when you're too busy to diet, you still have to eat healthy.
College is kicking my ass. I have probably the most absurd paper I have ever written in my life due tomorrow, and i'm still 1/3 of the way done. I have been very busy with school, and other things, and when I get busy, it gets harder to stay on my diet. On the 6 week body makeover, you eat 6 small meals a day, ever 2-3 hours. you can't always bring the food you're supposed to be eating with you (grilled chicken doesn't travel that well...) but at the same time, it's hard to be home every 2-3 hours to eat!
but i've been telling myself lately that, no matter how busy I get, I have to still be healthy. Being busy is not an excuse to be fat, and i'm proud that even though i've been busy, i've eating healthy. I even worked out today! for a full hour! I didn't get to do my body sculpting/ muscle building today, but I still have the rest of the week to do it.
I am going to a PCOS doctor tomorrow. I am SOOO excited!!! I know that i'm not going to go in and be cured, but she is a doctor specializing in PCOS and diabetes, and I have sooo many questions I want to ask her about birth control, metformin, and all that stuff. I'm pretty sure I will start going on metformin tomorrow, after last week only losing 1 pound. For women with PCOS, it can a lot harder to lose weight because of hormones. Access estrogen is stored in your cells, and when its released (when you lose weight), it can screw with your insulin levels (another hormone) and make it harder to lose weight. I dunno. it's complicated. I'm not looking for an easy way out, but they say that metformin makes your body lose weight like normal peoples bodies. So maybe things will be better.
I'll update tomorrow right when I get back from the doctor. Woohoo!
but i've been telling myself lately that, no matter how busy I get, I have to still be healthy. Being busy is not an excuse to be fat, and i'm proud that even though i've been busy, i've eating healthy. I even worked out today! for a full hour! I didn't get to do my body sculpting/ muscle building today, but I still have the rest of the week to do it.
I am going to a PCOS doctor tomorrow. I am SOOO excited!!! I know that i'm not going to go in and be cured, but she is a doctor specializing in PCOS and diabetes, and I have sooo many questions I want to ask her about birth control, metformin, and all that stuff. I'm pretty sure I will start going on metformin tomorrow, after last week only losing 1 pound. For women with PCOS, it can a lot harder to lose weight because of hormones. Access estrogen is stored in your cells, and when its released (when you lose weight), it can screw with your insulin levels (another hormone) and make it harder to lose weight. I dunno. it's complicated. I'm not looking for an easy way out, but they say that metformin makes your body lose weight like normal peoples bodies. So maybe things will be better.
I'll update tomorrow right when I get back from the doctor. Woohoo!
Tazorac Update-PCOS Acne Routine
I just wanted to update you guys on my acne routine-
It's been about a week since I started using Tazorac, supposedly the "miracle cream"
last week i used it every other day (like directed) and as of monday, i am putting it on my face every night.
So far, I am really disappointed... I don't see any changes. and I feel like maybe, if anything, my skin might be getting a little worse- not like really worse, but enough to where I can notice. or maybe it's just my brain being a pessimist because I see nothing getting better...
I am on the lowest dose cream (they have 1%, .5%, and .1%, and I am on the .1%). I am on this strength until late november, when I go back to my dermatologist for an update, and probably to get on the 2nd highest strength (they said that's what they normally do on your second visit)
Other things I am on:
Soldyn.. or Sodlyn? a super crazy expensive supposedly ground breaking anti-biotic made especially for acne. It's like over 500 dollars a bottle, and I haven't seen ANY difference. I take it once a day, everyday, and it's almost been a month- nothing. I used to be on doxyclene, and i hated the way it made me feel, but atleast it half-way decently worked.
I use AcZone in the morning. It's just a clear gel that contains dapsone.
My routine:
Morning-
1.wash face with Aveeno Radiance Cleanser (helps get rid of my acne scars)
2. Tone (every other day with Orgins Herbal Toner)
3. Moisturize with Keihl's Brightening Moisturizer (the best moisturizer EVER...helps get rid of my acne scars)
4. Apply a pea size amount of Aczone
Night:
1. Remove makeup (with either makeup remover clothes or babywash)
2. Wash with Neutrogena Extra Gentle Cleanser (but this is about to change...that stuff stings my skin...which is so weird)
3. CeraVea Moisturizing Lotion- just really plain gentle oil-free moisturizer
4. Apply a pea size amount of Tazorac
Also, if i take a shower, I exfoliate with:
Aveeno Brightening Radiance Daily Scrub to exfoliate my skin
Once or Twice a week, I use Kiehl's Rare Earth Face Mask which absorbs oil and cleans poors
I take SUCH good care of my skin guys. I always wash my face. I wear natural makeup. The only bad thing I do is sometimes I pick (so bad, I know) but I feel like I should have SUCH good skin with the way I take care of it. It's so frusturating. i mean, imagine eating only whole grains and fruits and veggies your whole life, but remaining morbidly obese- that's what this feels like.
Gonna give tazorac some more time though. hopefully i'll start seeing results
Let me know if you've ever used Tazorac & the results you've seen PLEASE!! I would love to hear from you
It's been about a week since I started using Tazorac, supposedly the "miracle cream"
last week i used it every other day (like directed) and as of monday, i am putting it on my face every night.
So far, I am really disappointed... I don't see any changes. and I feel like maybe, if anything, my skin might be getting a little worse- not like really worse, but enough to where I can notice. or maybe it's just my brain being a pessimist because I see nothing getting better...
I am on the lowest dose cream (they have 1%, .5%, and .1%, and I am on the .1%). I am on this strength until late november, when I go back to my dermatologist for an update, and probably to get on the 2nd highest strength (they said that's what they normally do on your second visit)
Other things I am on:
Soldyn.. or Sodlyn? a super crazy expensive supposedly ground breaking anti-biotic made especially for acne. It's like over 500 dollars a bottle, and I haven't seen ANY difference. I take it once a day, everyday, and it's almost been a month- nothing. I used to be on doxyclene, and i hated the way it made me feel, but atleast it half-way decently worked.
I use AcZone in the morning. It's just a clear gel that contains dapsone.
My routine:
Morning-
1.wash face with Aveeno Radiance Cleanser (helps get rid of my acne scars)
2. Tone (every other day with Orgins Herbal Toner)
3. Moisturize with Keihl's Brightening Moisturizer (the best moisturizer EVER...helps get rid of my acne scars)
4. Apply a pea size amount of Aczone
Night:
1. Remove makeup (with either makeup remover clothes or babywash)
2. Wash with Neutrogena Extra Gentle Cleanser (but this is about to change...that stuff stings my skin...which is so weird)
3. CeraVea Moisturizing Lotion- just really plain gentle oil-free moisturizer
4. Apply a pea size amount of Tazorac
Also, if i take a shower, I exfoliate with:
Aveeno Brightening Radiance Daily Scrub to exfoliate my skin
Once or Twice a week, I use Kiehl's Rare Earth Face Mask which absorbs oil and cleans poors
I take SUCH good care of my skin guys. I always wash my face. I wear natural makeup. The only bad thing I do is sometimes I pick (so bad, I know) but I feel like I should have SUCH good skin with the way I take care of it. It's so frusturating. i mean, imagine eating only whole grains and fruits and veggies your whole life, but remaining morbidly obese- that's what this feels like.
Gonna give tazorac some more time though. hopefully i'll start seeing results
Let me know if you've ever used Tazorac & the results you've seen PLEASE!! I would love to hear from you
I live in the South, but I'm SO COLD!
If you haven't noticed- my blog isn't very personal. I don't have pictures of myself up, my name, or where I live. It's for a bunch of different reasons- but regardless of what they are, I feel it shouldn't matter. The person I am is not where I live, what my name is, or what I look like. I feel like my true self comes out through these blogs, and i'd like to keep everything separate. Also, i don't want anyone I know coming and finding this. It's too personal. Does that make sense? Good. =)
Well there is one thing I will tell you about me that is kind of personal- I live in the South. I live in South Carolina actually, and for the past 5 months or so, i've been dealing with super humid 80+ weather. Today, it's 63 degress, and I just think it's funny how unaccumulated my body was to the cold! I walked outside, and I swore it was like 50 degrees! haha..noo..it was like 65. I felt silly hahaha.
There is a reason I am telling you this- I have a huge room, with huge huge windows and huge french doors (i live in an old historic house) and in an old historic house comes super super bad temperature. It's always hot as hell in the summer and cold as christmas in the winter. My room is missing a lot of weather stripping currently, so last night in my room it was 51 degrees. I was wearing leggings, sweatpants, a long sleeved shirt, a sweatshirt, two pairs of socks, and rolled up into like 8 blankets. I know, 50 degrees isn't freezing, but to a girl that spends her days in 90 degree heat typically, it is! and it's especially not fun your ROOM is 50 degrees, and you're trying to go to sleep...
So...since I was so cold, I didn't end up falling asleep until 5 AM. and it totally whacked-out my day. I've been trying to go to bed by 2 and wake up at 10 AM, which has been working out for me great. Not having the right amount of sleep really throws me off...
SO i woke up today at like 3. I had class at 4. I was sooo exhausted, even though I technically slept a lot. didn't stick with my 6wbm plan (but i didn't eat really terribly either, i stayed within 1300 calorie range), but i didn't get to excerise, because i had class from 4 to 9 and then this big event right after that i HAD to go to.
I'm focused on getting back on track tomorrow. I haven't done any cardio yet this week, and tomorrow is wednesday which I'm sad about because normally I've already atleast done one day. But I think I'm going to change my weigh-in days to Monday anyway, so atleast I still have 5 days to work out.
I am worried about Saturday... i am leaving really early in the morning to go out of town for a music festival in Georgia. I guess I will wakeup really, really early and go to the gym? i HATE mornings!!
I haven't been doing so great this week, i've still been healthy, but i'm getting off track. I think i just lost a lot of motivation when I only lost 1 pound last week, when i worked SO hard. And also, I'm getting sick of the food... ugh. and also, i've been SO busy with school. i'm in the midst of transfering schools, and its SUCH a pain and just very time consuming.
Does anyone else have any experience with the 6 Week Body Makeover? Any at all?
just checked the clock... its almost 4 AM =( !!!! I need to get to BED so I don't have an "off" day tomorrow, too! aghhh
Well there is one thing I will tell you about me that is kind of personal- I live in the South. I live in South Carolina actually, and for the past 5 months or so, i've been dealing with super humid 80+ weather. Today, it's 63 degress, and I just think it's funny how unaccumulated my body was to the cold! I walked outside, and I swore it was like 50 degrees! haha..noo..it was like 65. I felt silly hahaha.
There is a reason I am telling you this- I have a huge room, with huge huge windows and huge french doors (i live in an old historic house) and in an old historic house comes super super bad temperature. It's always hot as hell in the summer and cold as christmas in the winter. My room is missing a lot of weather stripping currently, so last night in my room it was 51 degrees. I was wearing leggings, sweatpants, a long sleeved shirt, a sweatshirt, two pairs of socks, and rolled up into like 8 blankets. I know, 50 degrees isn't freezing, but to a girl that spends her days in 90 degree heat typically, it is! and it's especially not fun your ROOM is 50 degrees, and you're trying to go to sleep...
So...since I was so cold, I didn't end up falling asleep until 5 AM. and it totally whacked-out my day. I've been trying to go to bed by 2 and wake up at 10 AM, which has been working out for me great. Not having the right amount of sleep really throws me off...
SO i woke up today at like 3. I had class at 4. I was sooo exhausted, even though I technically slept a lot. didn't stick with my 6wbm plan (but i didn't eat really terribly either, i stayed within 1300 calorie range), but i didn't get to excerise, because i had class from 4 to 9 and then this big event right after that i HAD to go to.
I'm focused on getting back on track tomorrow. I haven't done any cardio yet this week, and tomorrow is wednesday which I'm sad about because normally I've already atleast done one day. But I think I'm going to change my weigh-in days to Monday anyway, so atleast I still have 5 days to work out.
I am worried about Saturday... i am leaving really early in the morning to go out of town for a music festival in Georgia. I guess I will wakeup really, really early and go to the gym? i HATE mornings!!
I haven't been doing so great this week, i've still been healthy, but i'm getting off track. I think i just lost a lot of motivation when I only lost 1 pound last week, when i worked SO hard. And also, I'm getting sick of the food... ugh. and also, i've been SO busy with school. i'm in the midst of transfering schools, and its SUCH a pain and just very time consuming.
Does anyone else have any experience with the 6 Week Body Makeover? Any at all?
just checked the clock... its almost 4 AM =( !!!! I need to get to BED so I don't have an "off" day tomorrow, too! aghhh
Monday, October 19, 2009
Depressed, but not Defeated.
I don't even know. 1 pound? srsly?
I feel like I did a lot better this week than last week, minus the drinking and the burger I ate. But I seriously expected atleast a FEW pounds difference, and I'm super sad that the scale didn't reflect that....
For all of you who don't know, I'm following the 6WBM diet. It's pretty much supposed to melt pounds off of you. Which is another reason I'm super shocked.
I followed all of my goals, I excercised 4 times this week, I ate different protien that just chicken, and I expiramented with some recipes. My Body Sculpting Routine even got twice as hard, and I still did each day twice a week, which is 4 times total.
yeah...well, its probably a mixture of a few above. we'll see.
Regardless, I feel better, and I lost inches. I know that the alcohol and burger had a major thing to do with it, but I'm determined to keep it as a learning experience and keep moving. From this point out, all salt is cut out of my diet. Sometimes I allow a little here and there, but as of now it's COMPLETELY out.
I'm determined to keep going...and I'm hoping my body will catch up with the way I feel and next week will show a much bigger weight loss. Maybe I should get on Metformin?
I feel like I did a lot better this week than last week, minus the drinking and the burger I ate. But I seriously expected atleast a FEW pounds difference, and I'm super sad that the scale didn't reflect that....
For all of you who don't know, I'm following the 6WBM diet. It's pretty much supposed to melt pounds off of you. Which is another reason I'm super shocked.
I followed all of my goals, I excercised 4 times this week, I ate different protien that just chicken, and I expiramented with some recipes. My Body Sculpting Routine even got twice as hard, and I still did each day twice a week, which is 4 times total.
Theories as to why I possibly didn't lose:
1. Aunt flo' is coming back around (I had major terrible cramps today, but I haven't had my period in a while because of PCOS. If I get it, this is a good sign)
2. Built muscle, which weighs more than fat
3. My scale is just trying to piss me off & get back at me for stepping on him all the time
4. alcohol had some weird effect on my body which made me gain anything back that i had lost
5. a hardee's burger is really 18,000 calories, not 910.
yeah...well, its probably a mixture of a few above. we'll see.
Regardless, I feel better, and I lost inches. I know that the alcohol and burger had a major thing to do with it, but I'm determined to keep it as a learning experience and keep moving. From this point out, all salt is cut out of my diet. Sometimes I allow a little here and there, but as of now it's COMPLETELY out.
I'm determined to keep going...and I'm hoping my body will catch up with the way I feel and next week will show a much bigger weight loss. Maybe I should get on Metformin?
Goals for this week:
1. No salt. At all.
2. Cardio 5 times a week.
3. 100 oz of water a day, not just "a lot of water throughout the day".
Week 2- Weigh In & Measurements
Day 1. Measurements!
Chin/Head: 25.5
Chest: 39
Upper Left Arm: 14.0
Lower left Arm: 10.5
Upper RightArm: 15.0
Lower Right Arm: 11.0
Bust: 43.5
Waist: 38.5
Torso (right below belly butto): 47.5
Hips (right above butt, below "tire"): 45.0
Butt:45.0
Upper Left Thigh: 28.0
Mid Left Thigh: 24.0
Above Left Knee: 18.5
Left Calf: 16.0
Upper Right Thigh: 27.5
Mid Right Thigh: 24.5
Above Right Knee: 18.5
Right Calf: 15.5
weight: 199.8 pounds
Difference: 1 pound
Can I just say? Something is wrong with my scale. Everytime I step on it, I get a new number. I'm gonna go get a new one today.
Chin/Head: 25.5
Chest: 39
Upper Left Arm: 14.0
Lower left Arm: 10.5
Upper RightArm: 15.0
Lower Right Arm: 11.0
Bust: 43.5
Waist: 38.5
Torso (right below belly butto): 47.5
Hips (right above butt, below "tire"): 45.0
Butt:45.0
Upper Left Thigh: 28.0
Mid Left Thigh: 24.0
Above Left Knee: 18.5
Left Calf: 16.0
Upper Right Thigh: 27.5
Mid Right Thigh: 24.5
Above Right Knee: 18.5
Right Calf: 15.5
Total: 507
Difference: 4.75 inchesweight: 199.8 pounds
Difference: 1 pound
Can I just say? Something is wrong with my scale. Everytime I step on it, I get a new number. I'm gonna go get a new one today.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Oh, Fuck. On Day 14, I ate a a Hardee's Thickburger.
Sorry for the language, but seriously, oh fuck.
I totally blew my diet last night...
I've been trying not to "go out" with my friends, because mostly we just end up at bars (we're in college) and it's not that I have an issue controlling myself, I usually only drink a little, it's just I hate the fact that alcohol is major empty calories. I've been doing pretty well so far.
Last night though, I took my best friend out. Her fiance dumped her out of nowhere yesterday, and I promised her i'd take her out and get her wasted. We did, and I knew that the circumstances were special and I felt okay with getting drunk. I started with a jack & ginger, my fave, and promised myself I'd only have 1. I did. Then I had vodka & sodas (low in calories). Then I bought my friend a huge shot of jack daniels, so I had one too. Thats when I just kind of got drunk and I lost control. It was cold outside, and I really wanted a Woodchuck Amber (a cider beer), and if I hadn't of been drunk, I would have been able to avoid it. But I really didn't have any willpower...and I got 2 of them =(
But that's not even the worst part- my best friend kept on talking about how she wanted a cheeseburger (by the way, she's 101 pounds and 5'7, don't you hate her?) and ever since she was talking about it I couldn't get it out of my head. I used to always go to hardee's after the bar and get a Thickburger, and thats what I did last night. I KNOW if I wasn't drunk I wouldn't of done it.
I ate it all. I wanted to throw up, but i was so drunk and tired that I didn't. I looked up the nutrition value this morning, knowing that it was going to be bad- figuring maybe 500-600 calories. Oh fuck, I was way off.
Nutrition Info For a Thickburger:
910 Calories.
570 of them from Fat.
64 grams of fat.
21 grams of Saturated Fat.
100 mg of cholestrol
53 carbs
ect ect ect. Are you crying? Because I am.
I had NO IDEA I was eating almost 1000 calories. Sometimes I don't even eat 1000 calories a day. I AM SO MAD
So, it's sunday, and I know I always weigh-in on Sunday, but I might change it to Monday- maybe not for good, but atleast for this week. After all my hard work, I feel like I could've completely blown it for the whole week by eating that. I'm going to drink a TON of water today, hopefully to get all of the bloat out, eat correctly, and weigh in tomorrow.
I'm just so upset.
Things I've Learned:
1. Don't ever eat at Hardee's again. EVER. The nutrition info is retarded.
2. Always find out how many calories are in what you're eating if you don't know. And NEVER ASSUME.
3. Don't get drunk to the point where you can't control yourself.
I totally blew my diet last night...
I've been trying not to "go out" with my friends, because mostly we just end up at bars (we're in college) and it's not that I have an issue controlling myself, I usually only drink a little, it's just I hate the fact that alcohol is major empty calories. I've been doing pretty well so far.
Last night though, I took my best friend out. Her fiance dumped her out of nowhere yesterday, and I promised her i'd take her out and get her wasted. We did, and I knew that the circumstances were special and I felt okay with getting drunk. I started with a jack & ginger, my fave, and promised myself I'd only have 1. I did. Then I had vodka & sodas (low in calories). Then I bought my friend a huge shot of jack daniels, so I had one too. Thats when I just kind of got drunk and I lost control. It was cold outside, and I really wanted a Woodchuck Amber (a cider beer), and if I hadn't of been drunk, I would have been able to avoid it. But I really didn't have any willpower...and I got 2 of them =(
But that's not even the worst part- my best friend kept on talking about how she wanted a cheeseburger (by the way, she's 101 pounds and 5'7, don't you hate her?) and ever since she was talking about it I couldn't get it out of my head. I used to always go to hardee's after the bar and get a Thickburger, and thats what I did last night. I KNOW if I wasn't drunk I wouldn't of done it.
I ate it all. I wanted to throw up, but i was so drunk and tired that I didn't. I looked up the nutrition value this morning, knowing that it was going to be bad- figuring maybe 500-600 calories. Oh fuck, I was way off.
Nutrition Info For a Thickburger:
910 Calories.
570 of them from Fat.
64 grams of fat.
21 grams of Saturated Fat.
100 mg of cholestrol
53 carbs
ect ect ect. Are you crying? Because I am.
I had NO IDEA I was eating almost 1000 calories. Sometimes I don't even eat 1000 calories a day. I AM SO MAD
So, it's sunday, and I know I always weigh-in on Sunday, but I might change it to Monday- maybe not for good, but atleast for this week. After all my hard work, I feel like I could've completely blown it for the whole week by eating that. I'm going to drink a TON of water today, hopefully to get all of the bloat out, eat correctly, and weigh in tomorrow.
I'm just so upset.
Things I've Learned:
1. Don't ever eat at Hardee's again. EVER. The nutrition info is retarded.
2. Always find out how many calories are in what you're eating if you don't know. And NEVER ASSUME.
3. Don't get drunk to the point where you can't control yourself.
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