Day 3- Taco Bell & Scary Sugar Cravings

Day 3 is over.

It was going well, until I ended up skipping my afternoon snack. I was worried about what would happen if I skipped a meal, so I was excited when I was let out of math class 30 minutes early. I had read-up on 6WBM fast foods that are friendly. I went to go deposit my check, and went to chik-fil-a to order a Grilled Chicken Sandwich with no bun or pickles and a small fruit cup. I was really proud of myself because I couldn't remember the last time I had ordered anything at chik-fil-a besides fries, chicken strips, lots of sauce, sweet tea, and ice cream.

And then, my card declines. My check didn't go through so I had no money to get any food. I eventually found like 3 dollars of cash in my bag, so I made a quick trip to Zaxby's which was right next door to my class, thinking at the very least they'd have a salad I could get. I got a small side salad (lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers) with no dressing and I attempted it to eat it but I just couldn't. I seriously almost threw up in my mouth. I was about to be late for class so I had no choice but to just deal with skipping a meal. I kept drinking a lot of water, and everything was okay until I got home.

And then I slowly cracked.

It first started when I realized I didn't have anything at home to eat. i had eaten the last bit of chicken earlier that day. i was really tired and figured I could get some money from my dad and just buy a fast food meal that was 6WBM friendly like I was going to do earlier that day. So I got some money, and I kept on thinking about it and I went to taco bell. I wasn't in the mood for Fast food type lettuce (its always really gross) so I thought a burrito with grilled chicken and rice and salsa would be okay. So I asked for a chicken burrito with no cheese, thinking the only thing I would be cheating on was the tortilla which wasn't the end of the world. Then I get the burrito, and I look inside, and theres that like avacado ranch type sauce all over it. I knew it added a ton of calories and I shouldn't eat it, but I was soooooo hungry at this point, it was like 1030 and it had been 7 hours since I had eaten anything). So I ate it, feeling guilty the whole time, and also realizing that it wasn't THAT good. It wasn't worth being fat for.

I tried to brush it off... but then the worst and scariest thing happened...

I planned on going straight home, eating some green beans and a lot of water. Then, out of nowhere, I get a huge craving for poptarts. This was scary...Because I literally couldn't stop myself. Like, I drove to the gas station, stayed in my car and debated for like 10 minutes on whether or not I really wanted to go and buy the poptarts, went into the gas station, couldn't bring myself to buy it, got in the car and the craving got worse, went to the other gas station and bought a pack. I only ate 1 & 1/4, the rest of it I put down the sink right when I got home. And its not just poptarts I crave, it's HOT poptarts and COLD milk. it's seriously a weekness. I get like that with poptarts and cookies. Anyway, It was really scary that I couldn't force myself not to go get the poptarts and eat them. I think part of it is simply out of habit, I used to always eat crap like that late at night, usually after some major fast food run. Just even now, thinking about it, having that shit in my system is just making me crave it even more. It makes me so mad.

So I come home to log all of my food i've eaten- and I go to taco bell's website. You will never, ever believe how many calories a grilled chicken burrito has. First- ingredients? Only grilled chicken, rice, tortilla, cheese, and avacado ranch sauce. I got mine without cheese, and it was STILL 410 CALORIES!!!! WHAT THE FUCK! that is like more than eating a snickers bar! I could have eaten like a serving of ben & jerry's for that shit! I'm so mad. And the worst/weirdest part? WITH the cheese it's 440 calories. So cheese is only making a 30 calorie difference?

This had led me to do some investigating.

If I had gone without the Avacado Dressing and the Cheese, my burrito would have just been 340 Calories. it's still a little high, but it sounds about right.

Taco Bell has a Nutrition Calculator, that you can calculate all of your nutritional info for anything on the menu and even customize it! Also, I am finding out that this "Fresco" thing via TB is available for ANYTHING on the menu. Seriously, you can get anything Fresco'd. It basically means no cheese or sour creme or sauce, lots of tomatos and onions of salsa.
I Suggest everyone to do some research-it's very interesting.
http://www.tacobell.com/nutrition/calculator/

So tonight was....well, I don't know what it was. It was scary. And now I have a headache, and I feel like it's from all the crap I ate. But I am trying to stay positive and keep in mind that I am completely changing my lifestyle, and this is kind of my body freaking out about it. It is the beginning. I am breaking old habits. Sometimes old habits die hard. But next time, i'll be better prepared. So some things I learned from all this:
1. I must eat all of the meals, and ON TIME. Not eating my afternoon snack at made me suppper hungry. If I hadn't of been so starving, I would have been able to throw my 410 calorie burrito out the window. And then I wouldn't have had poptart cravings, either.
2. I must have food on hand, all the time. If i had something to eat when I got home, I never would have gone out in the first place.
3. Crappy food and sugar is addicting. During this diet, even though it's only been a few days, I really haven't had these extreme cravings that I normally have for junk food. But once I eat taco bell, I immediately get a sugar craving for poptarts. Concindence? I think not.


Tomorrow is going to be a little more hardcore 6WBM. More strict.
Just grilled some chicken with no salt or olive oil.
Going to the grocery store to get some veggies, and ingredients to try some 6WBM recipes.
Excited!

Anyone else have scary sugar cravings? Please let me know. I'd like to know I'm not alone.

Good luck in all your weight loss!